The hardest 'diet' ever

It's been a while since I've visited. Once the Beach House was done, I felt a little bereft, with no projects, so I've been sort of floating around, not getting much accomplished.

I've spent the better part of 2015 in sort of a funk. I had begun the year wanting to spend much less time on the computer and more time out in the real world, hence my garden, less writing and I've taken up bike riding [which is to say I've found new way to make myself feel miserable!].

Now that the year is winding down I find that I need a big change to motivate me. Writing has lost so much of it's appeal to me - the industry is so jaded, full of authors churning out mediocre work and making bank on it. I've really stepped back, the problem is that my writing income has become negligible. Now the question is, do I want to keep writing so I can eek out some more money, or do I want to keep writing because I enjoy writing? I don't know the answer at the moment.

But that's really for another post. The point of this one is to talk about the 'dieting' and the various experiments I've conducted. While I enjoy the keto way of eating and I've found that it has made me feel better, done some good with my 'important' numbers and allowed me to eat things I actually like, it has made no lasting impact on my weight.

What I've finally decided is to embark on the most difficult 'diet' yet. What, you say? Are you insane? No. Actually I think I finally got SANE. The diet I'm embarking on is one where I finally train my MIND, not my body. Here's how it goes:

Rule #1:  Eat what you want to eat.
Rule #2: Don't be hungry.
Rule #3: Ignore the scale.
Rule #4: F*ck the diet industry.

Four simple rules - but probably very hard to follow. I pledge right now on October 18th 2015 to STOP the following things:

I will STOP weighing myself.
I will STOP looking for the next better diet or eating plan.
I will STOP feeling guilty for eating things I like.
I will STOP considering the calories, fat or carb content of a food and only consider its nutritional value.
I will STOP letting the diet industry convince me that I should be worrying about all these things all the time and that I am not doing enough to be 'healthy'.

I will NOT enter into a dialogue with any doctor about diet unless it pertains to allergies, nutrients or drug interactions.

I will NOT enter into a dialogue with another person in which I pretend to be worried about my weight or suffering from guilt about what I have eaten.

I will NOT use words like "good" or "bad" to describe my behavior with regard to food.

I will NOT use words like "good" or "bad" to describe food except in the context of flavor or freshness. [i.e. This ice cream is GOOD! or That sour cream went BAD.]

I will NOT allow someone else to shame me into eating or not eating.

I will NOT engage in a constant internal monologue/dialogue about weight loss, health or dieting.

Whew. Sounds rough, right?

I hope I can do it. It's important and it's for my overall physical and mental health.

Wish me luck. Hopefully a year from now I will feel better because of it.