Ignorance is bliss

Odds are I won't be posting so much anymore for a couple of reasons.

The upside: The picture here is of the new addition to our family - he's a 4-year-old rescued Chihuahua named Pablo, and he's a sweetheart who needed a good home. I intend to spoil him with copious amounts of love and attention. He won't replace Onyx of course - but can squeeze his 7-pound dog-shaped body into the 10-pound cat-shaped hole left by my favorite friend. 

I intend to spend a lot more time away from the computer. The Cyber world is a cold and angry place full of pathetic people, and I just don't have the fortitude to do much here anymore. I'll be outside walking the dog if you need me. 

Now for the downside: I'm still battling the health problems caused by an inadequate medical establishment. I'm at the end of my rope, but still fighting. I'm coming to the conclusion that the only way I will ever really feel better would be to cut all medical professionals out of my life permanently. 

2016 has been the year that sucked a fart from an elephant's ass. Literally. The immoral majority has elected a literal elephant fart to be the ruler of the free world. His followers are hateful, ignorant, boobs who spent the last year tearing down his opponent because they had nothing uplifting to say about their own candidate. The world is literally falling apart and we've allowed the lowest common denominator to decide that America should become what the rest of the world has always thought we were, crass, uneducated morons. We elected one for president - and now his followers are spreading their hatred and ignorance to every corner. It's sad, pathetic and disgusting, and if I spend too much time here, I fear all I'll do is talk about what a disappointment this country has become to me. 

Since our nation has espoused the idea that ignorance is bliss, I'm going to do the same. I've spent too many years being a thinking, feeling individual who worries about consequences, considers the feelings of others and wants peace and good cheer to rule the day. We've learned from this election that we live in world where a reality TV star is considered the best choice to rule our land. So why bother anymore? 

In the show The Vampire Diaries, the vampires have the ability to turn off their humanity. It makes it easier for them to do what they want and to deal with the guilt and unpleasant consequences of being blood suckers. I now live in a nation of blood suckers who have turned off their humanity, so I'm going to turn off my brain. Thinking has gotten me nowhere - I'm the lowest paid person in my office because I'm educated and nice, I'm overweight because I worry about every bite of food that I take, I lie awake at night wondering how to talk to doctors so they will help me and not think I'm rude or annoying. 

Where has it gotten me?

Absolutely FUCKING nowhere. 

So I'm done. 

2017 is going to be the year of Blissful Ignorance. The year of doing whatever the FUCK I want and who cares what people think. The year I don't owe anyone anything and the year the world, the country, and our moron president can KISS MY ASS.

Sorry if you expected better from me or more. But as of 2017, I don't care what you expect or what you think. Everyone else is out for themselves and they get whatever they want, so I'm jumping on that bandwagon. FUCK IT ALL and give me MINE. 

FUCK IT.

A declaration for independence

If you had a clog in your bathtub and you called a plumber to your home, and after looking at the foot of standing water in the tub, he told you ‘Just pour Liquid Plumber in it,’ and you told him you had already done that, and he then said ‘Well, do it again,’ then he wrote you a bill for $150 and left – would you call him again?

Of course not.

Yet, as patients we go to doctors and tell them we have concerning symptoms and we’re told, ‘Just go on a diet,’ or ‘Just get more exercise/sleep/vitamins.’ And when we say we’ve already done those things, we’re told to do them again or do them more or do them differently. We then pay their bills and go home feeling no better, convinced that we are to blame for our ill health.

Yet we keep going back to the same doctors.

Why?

Is it because we’ve been conditioned by the media, by insurance companies and by the medical professionals themselves to bestow some type of godhood on doctors and to consider their opinions, even those not based on scientific evidence or current research to be sacrosanct? Is it because we’ve been conditioned by the media, Big Pharma and the diet industry to believe that our health problems are either a) due to laziness and overeating, b) all in our head and a bid for attention,  or c) a symptom of depression requiring lifelong dependence on antidepressants?

It’s time to stop accepting this form of malpractice, and it IS malpractice, and to demand better medical care regardless of the cost to insurance companies, regardless of the drain on physicians’ time.

I for one, have resolved to stop putting up with the platitudes I’ve heard for decades. ‘Eat less and exercise more!’ is not a prescription, it’s a red flag that a health care professional is undereducated and misinformed. I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s okay for me to refuse to tolerate this type of incompetence any longer, and I’m committed to getting better care regardless of any inconvenience I may cause my doctor or other health care practitioners I encounter.

It’s high time I made the medical profession MY BITCH. So stand back, it’s about to get real.

Happy Fourth of July weekend, everybody. I've just declared independence.

What the Internet doesn't have

It seems like anything you want to know, you can find on the Internet these days. You can Google anything and get tons of hits, and so, of course, I spend a lot of time Googling 'menopause' and 'perimenopause', trying to find more information about the hormonal roller coaster I'm on these days.

Sadly, while there are just as many hits for these topics as for any other, there's a really not a lot of what I'm looking for. Here's what I DON'T NEED from the Internet:

A definition of menopause/perimenopause - I got all this during my first search. Why does everyone who writes about it have to include all the clinical whys and wherefores? We get it people. Dictionary and medical text explanations are passé and boring.

The ubiquitous suggestions - ugh already with the 'discuss this with your doctor', or try XYZ or PDQ. Half that stuff doesn't work anyway and the other half you need prescriptions for. Unless I'm literally out of my mind, I don't need pills. I need reassurances.

The Big 5 or 6 major symptoms - again, we get it. We know the major stuff. I want to know the unusual stuff. There are 30 or 40 common symptoms of menopause/perimenopause. If you're stopping at 5 - you're probably a man.

The weight loss talk - Stop. Just stop. We know weight gain is one of the big 5 symptoms and we're SICK TO DEATH of hearing how we have to be more vigilant now to avoid something that is patently UNAVOIDABLE. So just freakin' STOP already.

Treatments - Once again, we know that the medical industry revels in being able to declare something an illness that requires lots of pills and tests, but this not an illness, it's a normal progression. So if I search 'treatments' give me treatments, but if I search 'stories' don't give me treatments.

What do I want?

I want to hear from other women my age who are going through these things: the anxiety, racing heart, feeling that something is wrong but you don't know what, trouble sleeping, mood swings, itchiness, bad hair, bad skin, exhaustion, forgetfulness, clumsiness, irritability and stomach issues. Tell me how you feel and even better, tell me it all gets better eventually. How will I know when it's winding down, and I can look forward to normal again? What will normal be like? I want the real dope on this nonsense, not the clinical nonsense and namby-pamby 'eat less exercise more avoid caffeine and see your doctor' crap that everyone thinks I want to hear. 

The hardest 'diet' ever

It's been a while since I've visited. Once the Beach House was done, I felt a little bereft, with no projects, so I've been sort of floating around, not getting much accomplished.

I've spent the better part of 2015 in sort of a funk. I had begun the year wanting to spend much less time on the computer and more time out in the real world, hence my garden, less writing and I've taken up bike riding [which is to say I've found new way to make myself feel miserable!].

Now that the year is winding down I find that I need a big change to motivate me. Writing has lost so much of it's appeal to me - the industry is so jaded, full of authors churning out mediocre work and making bank on it. I've really stepped back, the problem is that my writing income has become negligible. Now the question is, do I want to keep writing so I can eek out some more money, or do I want to keep writing because I enjoy writing? I don't know the answer at the moment.

But that's really for another post. The point of this one is to talk about the 'dieting' and the various experiments I've conducted. While I enjoy the keto way of eating and I've found that it has made me feel better, done some good with my 'important' numbers and allowed me to eat things I actually like, it has made no lasting impact on my weight.

What I've finally decided is to embark on the most difficult 'diet' yet. What, you say? Are you insane? No. Actually I think I finally got SANE. The diet I'm embarking on is one where I finally train my MIND, not my body. Here's how it goes:

Rule #1:  Eat what you want to eat.
Rule #2: Don't be hungry.
Rule #3: Ignore the scale.
Rule #4: F*ck the diet industry.

Four simple rules - but probably very hard to follow. I pledge right now on October 18th 2015 to STOP the following things:

I will STOP weighing myself.
I will STOP looking for the next better diet or eating plan.
I will STOP feeling guilty for eating things I like.
I will STOP considering the calories, fat or carb content of a food and only consider its nutritional value.
I will STOP letting the diet industry convince me that I should be worrying about all these things all the time and that I am not doing enough to be 'healthy'.

I will NOT enter into a dialogue with any doctor about diet unless it pertains to allergies, nutrients or drug interactions.

I will NOT enter into a dialogue with another person in which I pretend to be worried about my weight or suffering from guilt about what I have eaten.

I will NOT use words like "good" or "bad" to describe my behavior with regard to food.

I will NOT use words like "good" or "bad" to describe food except in the context of flavor or freshness. [i.e. This ice cream is GOOD! or That sour cream went BAD.]

I will NOT allow someone else to shame me into eating or not eating.

I will NOT engage in a constant internal monologue/dialogue about weight loss, health or dieting.

Whew. Sounds rough, right?

I hope I can do it. It's important and it's for my overall physical and mental health.

Wish me luck. Hopefully a year from now I will feel better because of it.

Heart [Un]healthy docs

I'm at it again. Long-story short I actually went to the doctor this week for some peri-menopausal symptoms that are probably nothing abnormal, however for my doctor's peace of mind, he's sending me to a cardiologist.

I, of course, did some research:


[Portions of this diet plan have been taken from the website of a cardiologist I have an appointment with. The appointment is for the peace of mind of my primary care doc, NOT for my peace of mind, as he says there’s nothing wrong with me. I looked at the cardio’s website and found this sad bit of nonsense under their diet plan and I had to make an example of it. Typos and ridiculously lacking punctuation are the first two red flags, but let’s take a look, shall we?] [Items in parentheses are my comments]

 [BEGIN]

It is very important that you remember that diets of any kind were made to be followed. [I actually thought they were made to make money for someone but go ahead, let’s labor under your hypotheses]  If you make substitutions to during the program, don’t be surprised when your diet plan fails! [But if you don’t make substitutions, and your diet also fails, can you be surprised?] What we endorse are lifetime rules NOT trendy diets or block dieting programs where days of dieting equals pounds of weight reduction. [OK, here’s a very miniscule bit of wisdom, you may proceed, my mind is open.]

The aging process, starting at approximately age  40  is unkind to all. Small recurrent mistakes in your diet will lead to weight gain. When this happens you will think that you are not eating any different than before. [Actually for many you are NOT eating any differently than before.] Therefore it is essential you think before you eat.

The simple rule is that if it exists naturally it's probably OK holds true for the most part [another small piece of wisdom] . Most of the high calorie mistakes committed occur with man made foods [ok, I’ll give you that one]. You can't find cheese, oil or processed meats occurring naturally. Small quantities of oils, nuts and fruits are good but we here in the USA tend to over do it. The majority of   people in the USA are overweight. [over what weight?]

Remember that your body is going to be adjusting a new diet [my body will actually ‘adjust’ the diet? Or are you not able to write a proper sentence?] . Your body’s metabolism (the way your body gets energy) will be changing but more importantly our diet philosophy focus is around training  YOU  not to fuel your body incorrectly. We rather teach you lifetime rules than follow a daily pre-fixed diet program [wait a minute, what about not making any substitutions? Isn’t that following a daily pre-fixed diet program?]. It is important that you remember that important fact. [So far what I remember most is poor grammar, but go on.]

If you eat to live we can surely help. However, if you love to eat [because enjoying food is bad, bad, BAD!]  it will require a mind set shift. We can help you find it for yourself but ultimately the success of  weight reduction and it's [can’t even get the apostrophes right, can you?] maintenance is dependent on you finding this mental hook to keep you on track. You have all heard of people trying to quit smoking with all efforts failing until one day they just stopped and never went back to it! They found their mental hook.

Your body does not like to have severe alterations in diet. [So therefore you’ll be starting out by doing something your body doesn’t like.] There is an adjustment period that your body will go through to accept this new diet. DON’T make the critical mistake of going off and on this program or make substitutions [because it’s not pre-fixed or anything] YOU feel are OK. If that were the case you would be writing and coaching this weight reduction and maintenance program and not us. [Trust me, I can do a better job that you are so far.] The changes in metabolism and food selection training can be wasted with one night of unrestrained eating [so basically you can NEVER, EVER deviate] . If you know your [you mean ‘you’re?] going into situations that the program does not allow for our program, CALL US FOR TIPS! rather than going off the diet ( even temporarily ). [Not even for a millisecond, because enjoying your life is not allowed.]

Now for the program essentials ........... this is a TEMPLATE .... it gives you an idea ... we make  changes from here based on your size and activity level ...  so this is not exactly the program for YOU! [Wait, what about no substitutions?]

 

BREAKFAST

Cereals we recommend; Fiber One, Puffins or Kashi (Plain), measure one cup and eat with skim milk. [Because LOL – THESE must occur in nature, right? And carbs! Carbs! Carbs are good for your heart!!]

You may have non-calorie liquid with this. If you want coffee, add either skim milk [because all that pesky research about how low-fat or non-fat dairy is actually bad for you, well, that’s just pesky] or non-fat powdered cream substitute [because this also occurs in nature]. Avoid juices and whole milk. [Also avoid reading any CURRENT research that contradicts all these ridiculous rules].

Don't skip breakfast! [Nope, gotta have those occurring in nature cereals!]

As  alternatives to cereal, we recommend that several days a week you make substitutions [wait, what happened to no substitutions?!] with a MET-RX Protein Plus  or a MYOPLEX-Lite drink [Also occurring in nature? Can I grow these in my yard?] . If you wish, you can have a rice cake [Rice cakes are CARBS that GROW IN NATURE!! [Actually they are iin fact refined carbohydrates that are quickly converted by the body into sugar! But hey – they’re low in calories and hence good for you.]] along with the  16 ounce protein drink. The drinks come in several flavors. YES ... YES ... YES ... [Was it good for you?]  the drink option with or without the rice cake is more calories than the cereal but the protein and minerals are worth it. In addition, despite the additional calories we have not seen any less weight loss in patients.Another option, make a small carton of egg beaters or egg whites along with 2 slices of low calorie whole wheat bread (usually ~30 - 40 calories per slice).  [Egg beaters must be from chickens that lay egg-beaters, and of course, carbs, carbs, carbs!!] [FYI - Vegetable Gums (Xanthan Gum, Guar Gum), Maltodextrin. YUM!]

Between any of the meals you may have one RICE CAKE or a small bathroom (Kidde) cup full of Kashi or Fiber One cereal. [Eat out of a bathroom cup, that’s great! Can I grow Kashi and Fiber One in nature?]  You are allowed up to 4 rice cakes or  4 small (Kidde) cups of cereal a day.  [4 rice cakes a day! Oh, the carbs!!] We recommend that you have them between meals or prior to bed if you are hungry. You don’t have to have them!  REMEMBER .... if you eat a rice cake or cereal,  YOU MUST DRINK AT LEAST 12 OUNCES OF NON-CALORIE LIQUID ALONG WITH IT!   Examples are water, seltzer, club soda and diet sodas [because diet sodas occur in nature AND all that artificial sweetener is SO GOOD FOR YOU!].

The rice cakes you pick must be NORMAL size, not the jumbo size. If they are flavored check the calories per cake to make sure that they are not significantly higher than the un-flavored type. [But don’t worry about the carb content at all.]

 LUNCH

You make the salad. [No one else can make the salad?] Make sure not to add fruit. Fruit is not in this diet !!! [Because fruit does not occur in nature like rise cakes and Kashi and diet soda! Wait…] There are too many calories in fruit. [Forget the fiber and vitamins, those are not important]  The salad that you make can be as big as you like. Don’t include olives or avocado. [Because olives are so full of fat and avocados are the devil!]  Depending on other medical conditions you may have you may be able to use some preserved peppers or pickles. [Because preserved peppers and pickles occur in nature]  Make sure to check the calorie content. These items usually have little  calories. The down side is that they are usually very high in sodium content. In, addition to the salad, you must have 12 ounces of liquid along with it. Depending on the doctors evaluation they may or may not allow one or several slices of low sodium turkey breast  or sliced chicken on the salad. [Keep that protein low – your diet must consist mostly of carbs!]

  DINNER

First Option: Dinner with a large salad, steamed vegetables, protein dish of fish, chicken or beef and one carbohydrate. Desert strawberries or blueberries [wait, aren’t they FRUIT??]  and a tablespoon of can whipped cream [also occurs in nature. So avocados are VERBOTEN! But can [not canned] but can whipped cream is A-okay?] . More options with discussion with us. [What??] Portion size is critical. Like the joke of the person with a drinking problem ... I have one drink a day but the glass is VERY LARGE. Portion size is key. We use larger salads and steamed vegetables to make the fill. Be very careful not to use toppings, oils or calorie dressings on any portion of dinner. [Eat everything plain because flavor is BAD] Go over all toppings with the doctor.

Second Option with (2) dinners eaten [Wait, what? So I can eat 2 dinners?] :The first, usually at 4:00 PM or 5:00 PM , the second at 7:00 PM or 8:00PM. You may choose to have both at the same time [Okay so now we can eat two dinners at the same time??], it's your choice. [Wow, a CHOICE??]  The dinners that you can have are MODULAR with this option. DO NOT COOK YOURSELF ! [I would never dream of cooking myself. That sounds dangerous. Oh, wait, do you mean don’t make my own meal with fresh real ingredients? Right, that’s bad.]

The modular dinners that we recommend are;

-LEAN CUISINE [here’s a sample of some Lean Cuisine ingredients: MALTODEXTRIN, FRUCTOSE, SALT, AUTOLYZED YEAST EXTRACT, FLAVOR, MODIFIED CORN STARCH, MIXED TRIGLYCERIDES, CHICKEN BROTH POWDER, WHEAT DEXTRIN, - Yummy right?]

-HEALTHY CHOICE – [Here’s a sample of some Healthy Choice ingredients] [Maltodextrin, Soy Lecithin, Chicken Broth [Contains Flavors], Xanthan Gum, Caramel Color, Natural Flavor], Olive Oil, Isolated Soy Protein Product [Isolated Soy Protein, Modified Food Starch, Starch, Carrageenan, Soy Lecithin]).] [Nothing like a little carrageenan to promote inflammation!]

-WEIGHT WATCHERS – [these also include carrageenen, guar gum, xanthan gum, sugar and a host of other chemicals – Plus, let’s not forget to cook them we are irradiating them in the microwave]

[What the actual fuck? These occur in nature? It’s better to eat a processed, man-made block of frozen chemicals than to cook your own meal? I’m starting to ask myself, is this doc qualified to examine MY heart??]

Each dinner must be taken with 12 ounces of liquid. Remember, this is a modular program DO NOT MAKE substitutions! Don't eat and go to bed! Retire at least 2 hours hours later. [require what at least 2 hours later?]  If you don't chose the modular diet plan, SAVE THE TRAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! Ask the doctor how to use them. [If I don’t chose [really?] the modular diet plan, how would I get the trays to be able to save them??]

 

MISCELLANEOUS ITEMS:

Additionally you should take a multivitamin with minerals daily.

Other herbs and minerals can be discussed on an individual basis.

You must buy a weight scale and weigh yourself daily. [Because obsessing over your weight is healthy!]

The weights can be recorded on a simple ruled piece of paper. [How about a complex ruled piece of paper?] For a visual perspective, chart your weight on graph paper. Ask the doctor if there are any questions on how to do this. [Yes, I’d like to see a list of questions about charting my weight, please.]

The meal that is described in "LUNCH"   can be switched with the meal(s) after 5 P.M.  This may allow some variation in the feeding schedule [feeding schedule? Are we at the zoo?] if work routines require eating at odd times.


Now after you have lost the weight, take the next step and look better! [Because LOOKING BETTER is the goal here, not getting  healthier.]

 [END - some inconsequential deletions have been made so as not to copy the entire text verbatim]

[Sorry, Charlie. This ain’t flyin’ with me. I’m going to see the doctor, but I think if he gives me this diet, I’m going to give him this blog post.]

 

Why doctors suck

Here's the letter I'm sending off to my son's doctor today. I'm had it up to here with a-hole physicians and there head in the sand, dinosaur mentality. {revised after a cooling off period of 24 hours} [Edited to add that I DID receive a phone call from the doctor - a voice mail - in which he apologized profusely and asked me to call him to discuss. I have not done so yet because I have more important things to do that assuage his guilt right now, but I will, I suppose, ultimately get back to him.]

Let the new a-hole ripping begin.

Dear Dr. __________________

I’m writing to express my disappointment and dismay at the condescending attitude you displayed during my son’s yearly physical today.

You asked my son what his plans were for the summer, and he told you he planned to do a lot of walking. While this may seem lackluster to a busy MD, since you only see my son for 15 minutes once a year, I don’t feel you are the best judge of how he should spend his time. Our family plan for my son this summer is exercise, attention to summer homework and time spent with independent study in his field of interest. If that’s not good enough for you, I’m afraid that’s too bad. His decision to take up walking and to ‘build up his endurance’ is one that his father and I have encouraged and applauded. Rather than taking him to task with inane mathematical questions about how many miles he could walk if he walked 24 hours 7 days a week all summer long, perhaps you might have encouraged his initiative. At a time when many young people lose interest in exercise in favor of parties and over sleeping, my son has become aware of a need in himself to improve his physical health. Whether he walks for ½ hour a day or 24/7, he should be encouraged to do so, not asked “Is that ALL you’re going to do?” I don’t feel it’s your place to condescend to a 17-year-old who does not know you well enough to begin rambling off all of his hopes and dreams and ambitions to you during a 15-minute physical exam. Asking him what he thinks about when he lies awake at night is something I cannot often get him to confess; I feel it’s presumptuous of you to expect him to give you a full accounting of his personal goals in such a limited amount of time.

You asked him about his career ambitions, and he told you he was taking a course to learn a particular program. Rather than expressing support, you asked him why he wasn’t going to a college to take a course. Might I ask if you intend to pay for that course for him? If you do not, maybe you shouldn’t be demanding accountability from him.

You asked him what colleges he was interested in and grilled him when he said he hadn’t thought much about it. Prior to your entering the room, he and I were discussing a college that he is interested in attending and had made a decision to arrange a tour. I did not feel it was necessary to repeat our conversation to you as you are not his career counselor but his physician, and your job today was to assess his physical health, not brow beat him about where he wants to be in 30 years. That’s MY job as his parent. Not yours.  [Incidentally, as a cum laude graduate of Montclair State University, had someone asked me a similar question during the summer after my junior year in high school, my response would have been exactly the same as his.]

In addition, while I am aware that my son is overweight, and his diet and eating habits have been a source of concern and an effort on my part for many years to improve, I felt your ‘you’re never good enough’ attitude to be far more harmful than helpful.

I understand that my son is a patient whom you have watched grow from an infant to an adult, and I can certainly appreciate that you may want to see him excel and succeed and remain in excellent health for his entire life. However, the attitude I witnessed today, is, in my opinion as a parent, NOT the way to encourage good health habits but a way to make a young person feel inadequate. I was embarrassed, irritated and annoyed when I left your office and was further saddened when my son opted to forgo the trip we had planned to purchase him a new pair of walking shoes. I feel the tone of his visit to your office may have put him off of his ambition to improve his health rather than make him more determined, as I’m sure you feel your approach is meant to do.

It is beyond me to tell you how to do your job or how to deal with impressionable adolescents, as I’m certain you see many more of them in a day than I do, but having been the victim myself of this type of attitude in the office of a medical professional I have to say, it’s disheartening at best and demoralizing at worst. 

It’s my sincere hope that my son will continue to have an interest in improving his health through exercise. He receives daily encouragement from me – and as you told him – he is taking ‘baby steps’ toward becoming a well-rounded, healthy adult. My goal is to find medical professionals who will encourage his efforts whether they be small efforts or large ones so that he will be able to foster a productive and positive relationship with his chosen physician rather than an adversarial one as I witnessed today. I certainly hope I do not have to look elsewhere to find these professionals. I would hope that the next time you see my son, if you do, you will treat him with a higher level of respect as an individual and listen to what he’s saying to you rather than attempting to coach or bully him into saying the things you want to hear.

 

{drops the mike and walks away}

 

Lies My Doctor Told Me [Part 1]

Week 1 of the Last Grand Experiment has produced some interesting results. I spent the last 7 days doing extensive research on the High Fat-Low Carb lifestyle and trying to go as carb-less as possible, and here are the early results:

* For the first time in my life, I've been able to kick the carb cravings. I guess when you eat food that actually makes you feel full, you don't need that constant hit of sugar to keep you going.

* For the first time I've been able to stop eating in the middle of a meal because I'm full and not still want a cookie or a piece of chocolate.

* I've been coming home from work and foregoing the obligatory handful of snacky stuff I normally have to grab to keep me going through dinner prep.

*TMI - my normally cloudy pee is clear

* I have not had an incident of acid reflux in a week

* Most amazing of all: My chronic back pain that usually leaves me hobbling in the morning when I wake up has subsided. When I tell you, for several years, I've woken up every morning cringing because my back hurts. I've blamed the mattress, blamed the position I sleep in, blamed my two epidurals and naturally blamed my weight. Every time I've mentioned back pain to a doctor in the past, even when it's been due to an injury, I've been told that my weight is a factor {naturally in medical school they teach you that skinny people NEVER have back pain}. The times I've lost 10 pounds or 15 pounds or more, my back pain has never resolved. On day 2 of this eating plan, I woke up with my back pain reduced to almost non-existent. Guess what, it's NOT my mattress. My mattress is fine. My back pain was caused by inflammation. What caused the inflammation? Not weight - since I only lost about a pound in those first 2 days. Could wheat, carbohydrates, flour, sugar, gluten?? be causing inflammation that's responsible for my back pain? Hard to believe. But what else could explain it?

* Weight loss on day 7: 2.6 pounds.

What did I eat this week? Eggs, steak, broccoli, spinach, olives, cheese, pork chops, spare ribs, chicken, cream cheese, protein shakes with heavy cream added, bacon, quiche, nuts, pumpkin seeds, shrimp, strawberries, a small amount of dark chocolate and about half the bananas I usually eat.

2.6 pounds

And no back pain.

Could it really be that the medical industry and the diet industry have been blatantly lying to not just the American public, but the entire freakin' WORLD for decades? Is low fat really the key to the cash cow obesity epidemic? Is it the machine that generates customers for doctors who have patients with obesity, diabetes, high cholesterol, heart disease, acne, arthritis, and a million other ailments that keep them coming to the doctor all the time?

I'm torn. I mean, first of all, it's only been a week. Who knows what next week will bring. On one hand, I'd be thrilled beyond belief to have finally found a 'cure' for the many problems I can't go to a doctor about because all I'll be told is 'eat less and exercise more' and when that bland, pathetic prescription doesn't work, it's all my fault for 'doin' it wrong'. How great would it be to finally be in complete control of my diet and not feel like food is controlling me?

On the other hand, what a horrifying realization - that an entire industry - well, more than that, medical, pharmacological, food industry, diet industry... are ALL LYING - all the time. ALL. THE. TIME. That's terrifying. It's depressing. Is it really just lack of knowledge, poor studies, a desire to be politically correct? Or is it something a LOT more insidious. A desire to profit from the pain and suffering of billions of people??

That's dark.

It's unthinkable. I'm not sure I can really process how awful it would be if it was really true that what we've been told about how to achieve good health is all A LIE.

Yet, the Johns Hopkins University Medical Center has a Ketogenic Diet Center. [For the treatment of epilepsy in children]. Nevertheless.

The jury is still out.

But so far the case against the medical profession is stacking up in an alarming way.